Uncomforting Comforts [with audio]

Our home surrounded by gardens
bouquets of flowers,
smiling faces, loving dog
a well-kept neighborhood
filled with children playing in the yard
trails for running 
families seen bicycling
a picture-perfect scenery

A cozy bed to lay in
television to watch
a car to drive
employment to keep busy
and mouths to be fed

Absolutely no reason, I remind myself daily,
Look around…

A husband that helps around the house
adored by his children
his family is your own
parents, sisters, cousins, nieces 
love is all around

Absolutely no reason, I remind myself again
Look around…

Twenty years…
challenges overcome, 
dream vacations,
belly-aching laughs,
tears of frustration,
tears of joy,
we built this thing to last

Absolutely no reason, I remind myself again
Look around…

Looking up at the ceiling
while he thrusts himself into me,
it’s this deepness I’m missing
where earthquakes would once rattle me

What I’d give for an 8.0 right about now…